There’s Never a Good Time to Get in Shape

I turned 40 this year.

It didn’t hit me hard, like some people talk about. It didn’t actually bother me that I was growing older (wiser? more distinguished?). What bothered me was what I saw when I looked in the mirror.

I was fat. In my opinion, really fat.  I had let myself balloon up to 258 pounds, and I just felt gross. Something had to change.

My mantra became “F*&% 40!” as I made a life change.  Over time I decided perhaps a more family friendly #F40 would suffice as my battle cry.

The first #F40 decision I made was to make a radical change to my diet. I know that the main reasons for my weight gain were that I consistently ate far too many calories, I consistently got far too many of those calories from carbohydrates – especially junk carbs like candy and chips, and I was far too sedentary.

My normal mode of operation would have been to tackle all of those problems at once, rush out of the starting gate in a fury, and be burned out and bored within 72 hours. I didn’t want that to happen.

My other usual self-sabotage tactic is to do a ton of research, reading everything I can until I ultimately get distracted by another shiny object and move on. I didn’t want that to happen either.

I had a friend that had shared her great success on a Keto diet. I also know that a podcaster I regularly listened to follows a ketogenic diet. I decided not to do research but just to pick that as a first step and dive in.

I knew if I complicated it too much by tracking calories and micromanaging every little detail I would get frustrated. I kept it simple. I tracked my carbohydrate intake to keep them below 25 grams per day, and I stopped eating when I wasn’t hungry.

Of course, I hadn’t consulted my wife or had a discussion about how my decision would impact family meals. I hadn’t done any pre-planning to ensure our fridge was stocked with foods I could eat.  So basically I survived my first few days on packaged lunch meat and cheese slices I found in the fridge.

Things got better, and the point of this story is that I just took action. Enough was enough. I had “had it” and wasn’t going to keep down the same path.

Fast forward a few months and I am down 50 pounds. I feel better. I look better. And I think now it’s time to tackle some of the other things that made me fat in the first place.

I have 30 more pounds I’d like to loose, bringing me to 185 pounds. To get there I need to add exercise into my routine.  That’s my next #F40 move – to take up a more active lifestyle.  More to come on that.

There’s Never a Good Time to Start a Blog

There’s never a good time to start a blog.

On any given day there are literally dozens of “more important” things pressing for my attention. Things I really should get done so that other people aren’t waiting on me. Things that other people – often mindlessly or without thought to how it might impact my schedule – have put on my “to do” list.

But that is exactly the problem. Busyness and loyalty to an imagined universal taskmaster watching over my shoulder have kept me from moving ahead. From getting shit done. From breaking free of the cobwebs of “normal” and “routine” that have clouded my mind and dampened my spirit.

My wife and I have been working hard for the past few years to live our lives differently. To choose an intentional path that seems weird to others, but offers an escape from the traps that have ensnared us in a rhythmic cycle of worry, stress, fear and frustration. We have a long way to go. But it’s a start.

I read somewhere that a famous author – I think it was Stephen King – once said that he writes to find out what he thinks. That resonated with me.

I have been scared to start a blog for years, and, if I’m honest, the real reason is that I’m scared I don’t have any ideas. But I won’t let that shackle me anymore.

I think the act of tapping into the muse, letting the words flow and putting it down on paper (or computer screen) unlocks our innermost thoughts and lets us discover what we really think. It helps us challenge our ideas. Mold them and bend them until they take shape and offer utility.

That is why I am doing this.

I have decided to write this blog for me. To help me know exactly what I think, and who I am. But I also write it for you. I hope along the way it may challenge what you think, and offer up the the freedom to throw off anything that may be shackling you to a life of unfulfilled ambition. I invite you to engage at any time along the way.